It's over...

Well, dear readers, I had to call it quits.  I just cannot write in a Clairfontaine notebook.  I miss my moleskine.  I think my mistake here was trying a notebook that was not in the least bit similar to the moleskine.   I need to take baby steps and wean myself off slowly (if at all).  So my friends, it's back to the large, red, ruled moleskine for me. 
I found that I need the narrow lines, the back pocket for all of my secret treasures, the elastic closure to keep everything in and the beautiful manila paper with the rounded corners.
I found that my writing became artificial because I was trying to think of things to just fill up the page so that I could be done with the notebook faster.  I wrote about ten pages and then decided that I was being totally ridiculous and decided not to punish myself further.  This could all be related to my OCD, however, I think that many writers need the proper tools in order to write well.  One of my necessary tools is a moleskine journal.
Are any of you like this when it comes to notebooks or journals?  Do you have a preference of "tools"?